I was at the Awaken Love Worship Conference in St. Charles, IL a couple weeks back. During the Saturday morning time of worship led by Anthony Skinner, he started talking about putting our hope in God, and that He was restoring our passions and dreams. As he was sharing, I saw a picture in my mind of myself walking down a narrow and dimly lite hallway. The hallway looked like it was at an old theater with single lantern lights in between each doorway. I could feel the presence of God with me as I walked. There were closed doors on each side of the hall labeled with white signs and black letters which stated, Dream #1, Dream #2, Dream #3, Dream #4, and so on.
As I passed each door, each of them began to open by themselves. I felt like Holy Spirit was saying to me, just keep moving forward, and watch and see how your dreams are going to open up to you. As He said that, the thought went through my mind–but what are these dreams? I see they are numbered, and the doors line down the hallway with no end in sight, but what is Dream #1, #2, #3, etc.? Am I even going to know what dream was fulfilled if I don’t know what it is?
This vision really made me think–What really are my dreams? At times it has been hard for me to really list all of the dreams that I want fulfilled in my life. I have no problem dreaming them and thinking about them, and even believing and dreaming them for other people. But, for some reason I have felt that to actually state and write out my dreams is selfish, maybe people are probably going to think I have a big head and am full of myself, or somehow the dream will not come true if I tell someone what I desire. I know it’s crazy, but I am sure this is a reality other people face.
I have prayed and declared the scriptures about the desires of my heart being fulfilled, prosperity, inheritance, and more. Yes, God has done many great and grand things in my life, I have numerous testimonies of His goodness, but what is the next level of faith and having my dreams fulfilled. God created us with desires and passions, and He longs for those to be fulfilled in our lives. He is thrilled to see His children ecstatic with joy as their longings and dreams come true. He loves it when we are so filled with knowing we are dearly loved as His children by the blessings and favor He pours out.
As a parent we want to give our children the best gifts and exactly what they desire. I have asked my youngest daughter, what do you want for your birthday, and she says a Barbie. Well, if you have been to the store lately, you would know that there are hundreds of Barbies to pick from–it’s almost overwhelming, and not one of my favorite isles. Ha! So, I have to ask her, what specific Barbie do you want–hair color, eye color, Malibu Barbie, Skipper, Rock Star Barbie, etc., etc. When she tells me the details, I then know where to start looking, and it saves me a ton of time and frustration. At birthday party time, she opens the gift, and the smile and joy on her face as she sees I got her exactly what she wanted is priceless! Big score and points for mom and dad!
What if I am praying a general prayer for a new vehicle, and God provides me with a free Monster Truck–the kind with ginormous wheels and is really, really loud. Now I may at first be excited that I got something for free, but what am I going to do with a Monster Truck?!?! I have never really had any interest in a Monster Truck–they cost a lot on gas, they are noisy, take up a lot of parking space, and it most definitely will not fit into my garage. But now, what if I had been specific in writing out my dreams and desires, what if I was specific in my prayers for a vehicle. Yes, I am happy for this new vehicle, but it was not truly what I desired, and is something I would probably turn around and sell.
It is just like this with our dreams. How is God supposed to know how to fulfill our deepest desires and dreams if we haven’t given Him the specifics on what we long for. We are not cookie cutter followers of Him, with the exact same desires; we were all created uniquely. The Father enjoys the challenge and the thrill of pouring out the best and perfect gifts on His kids–He is full of surprises. He wants to give us the desires of our heart because He placed them in there from the beginning of time. He is even more excited about fulfilling the desires of our heart than we can comprehend. I know as a parent, there have been times that I have gotten more excited than my children as they open up the gifts we have gotten them–I love it!
So, I have been challenged by this vision to begin to write out my dreams, and the desires of my heart. Nothing is too much for God. It’s time to take the limits off, and break free from fears of them not being fulfilled. As I begin to write out my dreams in my journal, I feel like it will be something that will start to come to life. The Father is waiting to demonstrate His goodness, His favor, and His blessings. I don’t want to miss any open doors to dreams the Father is longing to fulfill. I am going to put a name to the dreams the Father has dreamed for me, and move with Him into a lifetime of fulfilled desires.
“For You have given him his heart’s desire, anything and everything he asks for. You have withheld not a thing from Your betrothed one.” Psalm 21:2 (TPT)
“May God give you every desire of your heart and carry out your every plan.” Psalm 20:4 (TPT)
“If you make God the utmost delight and pleasure of your life, every longing within you will be fulfilled.” Psalm 37:4 (TPT)