I’ll Believe It When I See It

Why does it surprise us when we have favor? Why does it surprise us when we have breakthrough? Are we conditioned to expect the worst? These questions raced through my mind the other day after my husband was sharing some super exciting news about his job, and my comment to him with a smile on my face, but in all seriousness was, “I’ll believe it when I see it!” I then realized what I had just said–I had come into agreement with doubt and unbelief!

We have been through some intense seasons in our marriage with various struggles and financial difficulties; i.e., no insurance at the birth of our first child, which ended up in a c-section; unexpected layoffs; the closing and loss of a business after 5 years; car difficulties; and the list can go on and on. But God has always been faithful–we have never been without a place to live, food on the table, and a warm bed to sleep in.

But now in a season of tremendous breakthrough, it often seems surreal. When things began to shift and change in our lives a few years back, I found myself having to shift my mindset all of the time. With all the goodness and favor that began to pour out on our lives, I was bracing myself for a let down, a disappointment, and a loss–it had to be right around the corner. Then God would just continue to pour out another blessing; He was re-wiring my ways of thinking; He wanted me to get it in my thick skull that He is ALWAYS good! Ha! Because of our life circumstances I had conditioned myself to expect the worst, but God was changing the condition!

After that moment of realization that I had come into agreement with doubt and unbelief, I repented and prayed, “God help my unbelief and shift my mindset to expect even GREATER things. For You are always good, You are always faithful, and You desire to pour out such blessings that there isn’t room enough to store!”

To have the faith and confidence in my Heavenly Father that He is in a good mood, and He wants to lavish me with His goodness, that I am highly favored and dearly loved–I believe it!